Alliedassault - i dont know what to say.

i cant believe this (you probably wont either)

so its about 3am and my friends and I are ready to go home from a party. we are all pretty buzzed and one of my friends offers me a ride home, I knowing he was semi-drunk (and the way he drives) decided to get a ride with someone else.

2 days later there is another party, so i decude to call one of my friends named john the night before to see if he wants to go. heres the conversation:

Me: "Is john there?"

jhon's g/f: "no hes not, hes in fucking the hospital right now!"

Me: "wha wha waaa....t, what hell happened?"

jhons g/f: "*pauses* *sniffles* you know that party you went to? well jhon, chris and nick crashed into a FUCKING TREE on the way home, chris was ejected throgh the windshield and is DEAD. nick is in ICU, and jhon has a broken pelvis and a fractured SKULL"

i paused for a few seconds ( i was in shock)

Me: "oh my fucking god.....(im not even religious) *pause* will *studders* they be ok? i mean john and nick?"

jhons g/f: "they say nick will be ok, and jhon will be too... i dont know what to do, im a nervous wreck *starts to cry*

me: "you do know they offered me a ride right!?"

g/f: "WHAT? you coulda been DEAD right now!!!!!"

me: "yeah, i know. i dont know what to say *i really get emotional now* which. hospital. are. they. at.?"

j.g.f.: Loma linda, i was just about to go and see him when you called. would you like to come and see them, it'd mean alot to them, and i really dont think i can go alone like the way i am now"

me: "i dont know, i feel really wierd right now........ok, yeah i guess. ill pick you up"

i pick her up and we drive over together. when i was driving, sitting in that car. i had the most happiest and most depressing feeling of my life. its like something had passed through me and assured me that everything was ok now. i dont know what the fuck this was... but i know it was spiritual (im not even religious)....when we pulled up to the hospital i almost began to cry.

so we went to the hosptial, i saw my friends. seeing my friends torn up like that scars you for life. i could have been killed. that could have been me with that toe-tag on. this shit is fucking unreal. i feel like one of the people from final destination. but i know, i made the right choice, i chose not to go with them. but just the thought of knowing you can be dead right now. really makes you realize how lucky you are to be alive. and EVERY little thing that you took for granted before, now you enjoy and appreciate it no matter how small or stupid it may seem you realy appreciate it nad realize how lucky you are. im changed for life. for all you risktakers out there. dont get in a car with a drunk. trust me. i wish i could say something different but "i know from experience"now.

unreal.

R.I.P. Chris.