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Its all to do with anxiety which as you know ive been dealing with for ages now. Its hard to ignore and the more you focus on it the more liable you are to probably have a panic attack over it. I always seem to have some kind of negative thought when im out which just keeps playing on my mind over and over. Theyre always really outlandish things that have no real chance of happenning but once the thought is there it just plays on your mind for ages.

Ive alwyas been told its best to occupy your mind with other things if you have one of these thoughts, or sometimes if you are going somewhere just focus on something that you'd like or want. Theres some really odd ways of controlling it like trying to recite a song backwards in your head, you focus on things like that and you become really set on trying to do the whole thing that no other thoughts crep in there. usually when im out i'll be listening to some form of music anway which helps me relax and not hink of anything negative.

Doesn't always work though, the other day i was in town and started to have those kidna thoughts in virgin megastores and had to sit down on the stairwell for a while to get my breathing under control. The worst thing you can do is run away from it, if you do it gets set i your mind that it cna happen again and again in the same scenario. Hard to do at the time but if you ever have a panic attack and you get your breathing under control again you're best to go on what you were doing and not let it make you go home or whatever.