[Chronic Diarrhea]

I'll plagiarize a post from one of my former clan mates:

Ok this is going to be a long one, it's more of an alternate reality than anything. And it being the most intense thing i've ever experienced, it's hard to explain.

Saturday I get a call from my friend Philman telling me he found a good source to buy Salvia divinorum 13x Extract. So we ride out to a tattoo shop called "Colors" in downtown Macon, and picked up a gram. Later that night we headed over to Jerry and Guy's place for the keg party Jerry was throwing for Guy's birthday. Hung out, had a good bit of beer and then Quick decided he wanted to try the Salvia. So we went out to Philmon's car and packed in, packed a bowl for Quick and he took 2 decent hits and he was laughing hysterically, after coming to he was amazed, he didn't have the full effect but he did experience some sweet visuals.

Next i'm up, I relax for a few mins and clear my mind as they pack the bowl, then it's handed to me. I first take one huge hit, held it in for 30 seconds and released, directly after releasing I felt numb. I felt my body going limp and un-movable. So quickly I took an even bigger hit, I remember counting to 21 and I was gone. I felt as if I was being pulled by a huge vacum to the right out of my body, and I felt I was being cut into different pieces and fading into the car itself. Then I lost all remembrance of my phisical being/body, I was in another world completely. I experianced the most vivid, beautiful color patterns i've ever seen. I started to laugh and the songs volume turned up abit, (Quick told me I said to turn it up, but he could barely understand me, I don't remember that) and I felt the waves of the music run through me, or I was 'surfing' the waves of music rather.

Then it really started to kick in and I was once again 'pulled' from that, just as I was my body. Now I was on a Tan field with nothing but space infront of me, scared the shit out of me because I had no idea this wasn't reality nor did I remember taking Salvia. Quick told me I had a panic look on my face and was breathing heavily, I told him if I freaked out at all to calmy tell me I had smoked Salvia and it would be over soon. He did, and I heard him, but in a womans voice. Just then a chinese dragon came past me and I decided to chase it, it was traveling at a large rate of speed and I was amazed that I could keep up with it, wich threw me into a fit of laughter again. I was getting annoyed that I could not catch the dragon or stop myself from running after it and again started to worry. Then I hear the womans voice again telling me to Let go, let salvia control you. (I later asked quick if he said that, and he said he didn't say anything except for You just took salvia, it'll be over soon, as stated earlier. wow, WTF!) Somehow I stopped trying to run and indeed salvia controlled me, I stopped and felt a great relieve. All the time I felt the presence of someone amazing, I couldn't see the woman that was talking but I felt she was beautiful. It's hard to explain but it's like being around a female that you really love and would do anything for, the feeling in the pit of your stomach, but I had no recollection of a body so it was everywhere. I then felt like it was wearing off and remembered our reality and saw Quick and the outside for a second, then it hits again.

And again I feel the pulling of my body and I'm in another reality, this time remembering the past experiences and that I had a body and this wasn't my reality. I started to quickly moved through a hallway of translucent colors and designs and the faster I went the more I could recognize something, but I wasn't sure of what. Then I could actually see certain memories of mine being played out infront of me. (most of wich too private to tell about) I was shocked to say the least and was confused as well, how could this be possible ? How can I see memories complete vividness ? I felt myself turning up and almost puking because it was too much to grasp, too much to understand. I felt my brain couldn't keep up and was trying to 'fix' what was causing this. Then out of nowhere the movement stopped, VERY abruptly. Imagine reaching 260 mph in a car and hitting a solid mass immediately comming to a stop. I was being held between our reality and whatever I was in. This, a zipper holding the two together, it unzipped (literally) and became complete reality.

I was back inside my body and earth as we know it, amazing, stunned, shocked, scared, any emotion you can imagine. Quick asked if I was ok and I tried to say yes but I couldn't speak. I could barely even see, my vision was so far off. He got worried and said he was gonna take me to the hospital but I quickly grabbed his arm and shook my head as if saying no. I knew I was ok, I just had to come to grasp with what just happen, and my brain basically restarted as a computer does. After about 10 minutes I started seeing normally and could talk again, I told him I was ok and explained the best I could what happened. We got out of the car and headed back to the party, it was like walking for the first time. I got up tried to take a step and fell. Then started to laugh heavily because I was still in complete shock at what I just experienced. I sat there for awhile then got up and tried walking again, this time it wasn't as hard. I felt weak but I could walk, we got to Jerry's and everyone left, Jerry was asleep so we called up my friend Nick and he told us everyone was at Joey's apartment so we headed there. Grabbing the keg from Jerry's first though

We get to Joey's and mostly everyone I knew there said I looked completely different, all night I didn't have my non caring, relaxed, go with the flow attitude that I usually have. I was changed, and I can promise I am. I've always believed there is much more than we know, but now I know there is. I don't beleive all of this was imagined and made up by my brain because of the drug. Alot of people believe that this drug is a gateway to another reality, the spiritual world if you will. Native Americans used to for spritual journeys of learning and healing, people today still used to to learn life changing lessons. I felt all night as if I cheated reality, or God. The feeling of guilt I had was more than I've ever had, just thinking I saw something I shouldn't have tore me up inside. That night I learned otherwise, after falling to sleep directly as I layed down almost I was in a dream more real/vivid than i've had and the womans voice came back telling me what i've done wasn't sinful, but a virtue that some desire immensely, a lesson learned she said as leaving me.

I feel as i've learned trying to forget the bad memories isn't the way to go, but remembering them and learning from them is. And I shouldn't take life for granted as I do, to help and assist people as best I can, and not to judge people based on actions. That night I slept the best I ever had, waking up extremely happy and ready to share my experience. I was going to post this yesterday but was busy all day, and didn't get home untill later, then watched my new copy of Sin City (almost dvd quality) But anyway, this 'drug' is amazing, and legal. But I don't suggest taking if you're looking for a cheap high. And I would suggest having a sitter with you if you do, and be in a closed well known room with very little light, in a nice comfortable couch or chair. I will be doing Salvia again, but not anytime soon. It's way too shocking and extreme to do more than once every 4 months maybe.