thanks guys. its like i dont know... i cant be in crowds of people, specially the people at my school. seeing everyone trying to be cool makes me want to scream out and do something bad to them but i cant, and i wont which makes me mad. but then i think to myself... why am i so judgemental? what makes me godlike? then i go through self-pity which turns into a stage of anger. then if someone trips me off... i will have an attack. some ditzy blonde was telling me i have a mushroom cut and laughing and when i yelled she kept laughing.. and then that set it off. playing moh and being away from everyone calms me. im fine when im all alone in my room.