[CaP bUsTa]

I can testify to the fact that having Jesus in your heart does not bring you more joy. I truely, truely, believed in God and Jesus untill about a year ago when i had my confirmation, then i started questioning it all. Now, I am happier and enjoy life more, not because I have broken away from the commandments (i think most of those are great rules no matter what and i abide by most of them) but because I have came up with my own definition of meaning. To me Jesus or God doesnt give me meaning in life. I think that for someone to find meaning in their lives they need to do something to gain it. Playing sports, playing video games, being outdoors, being with my family and friends, and learning all give me meaning. I think that things like these put meaning into a life that in reality, when all is said and done, has no meaning at all. Our lifes are a minute fraction of time in an unimaginably small part of the universe, but it's my fraction of time. Im going to do something with it.