Dark Cloud
 

Ive been down lately....

my family has a serious history of depression, and ive seen it fuck over many peoples lives and this really scares me.

i hope its just seasonal, but i seem to have a dark cloud over me lately and i cant shake it, i do the best i can to be normal, but all i can think about is breaking down into tears and dying... and i dont know why

Ive been a total dick to all my friends, who coincidentally are having serious problems right now, and i dont know

im not seriously considering suicide or anything, but this crap has just been floating in the back of my head, ruining everything for me

wtf should i do? (medication might be an option, but i dont want to if i dont have to)

anyone have any good ways to deal with stress or seasonal/temporary depression?

all ive found is alcohol and that really hasnt helped much.... its only temporary.. and seems to make things worse

all ive really found is spending time with people i love, sitting around a fire (i love fires for some reason) or listening to music.....

shit happens dude, but you'll pull through it im sure.

thats the only thing i can really think of to do :-/ i guess theres no real miracle way to get out of this rut....

to tell you the truth, there usually never is.

Re: Dark Cloud
 

I know exactly how you feel man, I sometimes go through the exact same feelings you described.
It hasn't hit me in a while, but that's because I've kept my mind busy with other shit.

My dad used to get it when he was younger too, and he told me he had it from about ages 18 - 25, and that it came and went over those years.

The best thing I can tell you to do is, not to drink liquor that does make it worse, and to keep your mind busy.

It'll be over soon man - I had it for like 3 months straight at one point, but it seems to have gone for good.

Talk to people that will understand is another good thing to do.

thanks guys, ill just keep doin what im doin and hope it gets better

i just hope i dont end up like most of my family... my grandpa spent the first 60 years of his life miserable and wanting to die... then when he finally felt better cancer killed him

most of my uncles are either dead or so far gone that i cant stand to see them...... my dad was lucky enough to get away from that as a child and hes turned his life around, he had a miserable childhood and was basically homeless from about 10-25 yo..... and now hes got a house in the burbs and a "normal" life... so i guess hell understand if i talk to him

PS

i love you guys

vote for kerry, cause bush/cheny keep telling you you're going to die in a terrorist attack. that's probably whats making you feel bad.

1. i cant vote
2. i actually would agree with you... but not for that reason at all

Oh, I can't help you then. Sorry. Hope you feel better though.

1. Dont sweat the small stuff
2. It's all small stuff.

happy:

thatd make a good t-shirt

If you have a gf then spend lots of time with her. Yeah, you just gotta keep your mind busy, man, put in those extra hours at work. Listen to some music, watch dvds, and go jogging or driving around after school or whatnot. Spending time on gf1 will make recovery 3425w34% faster, though.

go to your doctor and tell them how you feel, and they will give you pills so you dont feel like shit.

and everything will be smooth sailing after that happy:

go to your doctor and tell them how you feel, and they will give you pills so you dont feel like shit.

and everything will be smooth sailing after that happy: