depression sucks...

T.Hunter · Location: 05/09/04 ja!!!

for the past 14 or so hours i have had nothing on my mind execpt what ill say in this thread...and ive withled my feelings untill now... i simply cant fucking stand it anymore. most of you wont give a shit about this story and will probably post a "like i give a fuck" response, but for those who have nothing to do, go ahead and read if you want, this is more of a personal rant for me than a topic for a forum disscussion

i met this chick named Sara last night at the Anahiem Supercross (motocross event held in angles statium) , every year we threw a huge ass tail-gate party with all my friends, i look forward to this event all year long. so Sara and I begin talking to eachoter and notice some things about her, shes not like any other chicks ive talked to.. shes everything i want in a chick, looks, hotness, funny, not afraid to have a good time and totally not stuck up. i know this sounds all fuckin mushy "love story" type of shit like in the movies...but we hardly needed words, we where serriously falling for eachother

blah blah blah

so we've been talking for about 15 mins and some fucking drunk n00b slams into my truck with his "l33t golfcart", im soo pissed i ditch her without thought and check out what that n00b did to my truck. by now im fed up with this guys bullshit and ready to beat the living shit out of him but Sara stops us, for the rest of the night before the race i was soo frekin pissed, preoccupied with my truck and my mind set on getting revenge on that n00b that everytime Sara said something to me that i totally acted like a dick to her without realizing. when i was getting a closer look at my truck she must have walked off.

i never saw her again. right now im soo depressed its not even funny.... out of all the other girls ive met none have even came as close as to her. i had her, she had me. i was given a once in a lifetime chance and i totally fucked it up.

so now im sitting infront of this god damn computer typin a love story and ranting, feeling sorry for myself and trying to get a buzz going so i can froget all this shit..... but hey, life has to fuck us over once in awhile

Madmartagen · 01-19-2004, 02:11 AM

Do you have her number? Can you find out where she works/goes to school? Did you guys talk about stuff like that? Find a way to talk to her again and just tell her that you were distracted a bit and would like to see her again, she may feel like she had something there too, thats why she was pissed. Instead of letting you know that you did something wrong, women will just get pissed and walk away even though they still like you. It just takes a little bit of communication to set things right again.

IF you find that noob, make sure you beat his ass like you are Ike Turner.

T.Hunter · 01-19-2004, 02:14 AM

i dont have her number. i dont know who she came with. i dont know where shes at.

Madmartagen · 01-19-2004, 02:24 AM

Dude that sux. Shit like that happens, you just have to keep your cool next time. There are a ton of women out there and it seems like you are the outgoing type who can carry a conversation with someone. Just go from girl to girl until you find one that you dig and who will tolerate your ass. In the meantime, you will prolly spend a couple of nights thinking about her and replaying the situation over and over again, but it wont help you. Don't do that to yourself, cause it will keep you from moving on. Just open the porn you got on the C drive and wack those sorrows away....

T.Hunter · 01-19-2004, 02:35 AM

*EDIT* n/m

Airborne Butters · 01-19-2004, 02:39 AM

There was a girl I used to like alot in 10th grade. Same type of stuff Hunter, great smile,personality,etc... I hung out with her for like 2 months feeling a connection but never really asking. As time went on we drifted apart and never hung out anymore. I never told her how I felt or even asked her on a date. A year later I was sitting on my computer when my freind called and told me the girl had died in a car accident. The point here is that go find her. Girls like this only happen once in a lifetime.

Pvt.Pinhead · 01-19-2004, 02:40 AM

If you REALLY thought you had something, find out everyone who was competeing and their phone numbers and spend hours trying to find someone named Sara who went along with one of the racers, even though there was probaly 100 Sara's youd eventually find her. Although it would be a total waste if you werent sure you really liked her and there was at least some hope that she'll forgive you.

Something like that happened to me once, but its a long story...basically I found her phone address after callin 20 ppl and it ended up she lived way up in Maine, we wrote each other emails for a while, but long distance realtionships dont work out...

General Cobra · 01-19-2004, 02:55 AM

Well sometimes it takes a situation like that to realize what's important and how you shouldn't act around a girl you really like. Let it be a lesson learned and move on.

(oh and after you read that last line just don't up and fucking forget the god damn lesson learn it .)

cameltoe · 01-19-2004, 03:05 AM

call all your friends that you came with and ask them if they knew/met a sarah. if you really liked her that much its the least you can do. otherwise thats just some bad luck man, it happends to everyone

Wilko · 01-19-2004, 07:26 AM

I'm very sorry to hear that, though you're not alone, all of us have been through it at some point. This isn't to detract from what you must be feeling right now, it's just to put into perspective that other people have been there and gotten through it. Ask around, you never know your luck, you may find her again. If not, the best you can do is chalk it up to experience, "Ships that pass in the night" and all that, and move on. This is capable of totally consuming you, but only if you let it.

Merlin122 · 01-19-2004, 08:24 AM

First apologize to the guy u acted liek a dick to then her. and if that doesnt work then there will be more women out there

[DAS REICH] Blitz · 01-19-2004, 08:27 AM

[quote="Airborne Butters":9b4e6]There was a girl I used to like alot in 10th grade. Same type of stuff Hunter, great smile,personality,etc... I hung out with her for like 2 months feeling a connection but never really asking. As time went on we drifted apart and never hung out anymore. I never told her how I felt or even asked her on a date. A year later I was sitting on my computer when my freind called and told me the girl had died in a car accident. The point here is that go find her. Girls like this only happen once in a lifetime.[/quote:9b4e6]pfft, prob. killed herself after she realized she had been talking with your sorry lardass

Chronic Diarrhea · 01-19-2004, 09:27 AM

That's unfortunate. You shouldn't have gotten so pissed about a golfcart of all machines ramming into your truck. I doubt the damage was significant enough to warrant your anger busting through. You should have just said, "It's no big deal," and continued to talk to her. If you felt she was the one for you, or at least for the time given, your want to be there with her at all times rather than checking out your truck should have been much greater.

negative · 01-19-2004, 10:32 AM

yeah--i think this kind of stuff happens to everyone at least once, and everyone has there own story--like i met this girl from holland and hung out with here at least 20 hours a day for a week-but ill never see her again, and i was really upset .. its like the saying...what are the three most important words about life?...

It goes on

bwolf · 01-19-2004, 11:05 AM

[quote="[DAS REICH] Blitz":29f6e][quote="Airborne Butters":29f6e]There was a girl I used to like alot in 10th grade. Same type of stuff Hunter, great smile,personality,etc... I hung out with her for like 2 months feeling a connection but never really asking. As time went on we drifted apart and never hung out anymore. I never told her how I felt or even asked her on a date. A year later I was sitting on my computer when my freind called and told me the girl had died in a car accident. The point here is that go find her. Girls like this only happen once in a lifetime.[/quote:29f6e]pfft, prob. killed herself after she realized she had been talking with your sorry lardass[/quote:29f6e]
dag yo.... that ain't right.

anyway, sad story g money but i suppose this sort of thing happens, and will probably happen again, and maybe even again and again. i'm very surprised you posted this here, by the way. for better advise, you may want to try posting on like a dashboard confessional forum. good luck man.